City Escape Collection

In recent months, I’ve made a few lifestyle shifts; nothing dramatic, but enough to notice how certain patterns follow me, no matter the setting.

I had this realisation today, after a minor issue with the internet in one of the apartments I manage. It’s going to be fixed in two days. Not a big deal. But internally, I reacted like it was a full-blown crisis. I wanted it sorted immediately. I played out worst-case scenarios in my head. I felt responsible. And I felt… emotional.

But the truth is, this intensity, this tendency to over-feel, is part of what makes me good at what I do. I care deeply. I anticipate problems before they arise. I take things seriously. It’s probably one of the reasons I’ve been a successful host.

Still, I know I need to learn how to manage this part of myself. Not eliminate it (because that’s not realistic) but soften its grip.

You think changing your environment will change how you feel. But your personality comes with you. The anxiety. The perfectionism. The “let’s fix this now” instinct.

This isn’t a dramatic confession. It’s just something I’ve started to notice more. Maybe the work ahead isn’t about fixing myself, but working with myself more gently. Letting go a little. Not rushing to solve everything immediately. Trusting that most things don’t unravel in a day or two.

I’m still learning. But it feels important to write it down—if only to see it more clearly.